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When the first image of the black hole located in Sagittarius A was released, I felt blocked to feel the joy of this accomplishment. Black holes have always fascinated me for several reasons. I am a woman of science, more than anything else, and in science I find my inner peace and my purpose in life.
I would highly recommend the movie “Interstellar” to anyone who is fond of metaphysics and physics. There is much truth in the hypothetical scenarios presented in this beautiful long film. Subconsciously, it always triggered something very deep within my soul and tears would always follow after certain scenes, especially the scene where the main character falls inside a black hole and becomes a teseract.
Today has been a particularly challenging day for my heart. Spiritually, I have found myself in a space of a deep loneliness, that could have been filled by any distraction in the past, like most people do. But I find myself in a space of restrictions, imposed by my own soul, or so it seems.
However, during a moment of meditation, I was forced to see a deep layer of darkness inside my soul, coming from the crude reality of ancestral times in past lives. The moments when the souls of women got shattered at their very worst. Women became what originally they were not.
I felt the presence of Diana Lucifera, mystical forgotten woman, often confused for Diana Artemisa. However, both goddesses are not the same, they are not even aspects of the same soul. Diana, is not Lilith either, in fact, Diana is much wiser and much more ancestral than Lilith. Lilith is a woman I respect and love very much for multiple reasons, but when I contrast her with Diana Lucifera, she is definitely younger in many ways.
However, not many seem to be able to endure her presence, which would explain why she is so forgotten, unlike figures like Lilith, or Isis, or Inanna, or, Hecate or the Marys. In the measure that you would get the highest levels of compassion and wisdom from Diana Lucifera, she would mirror the deepest darkest corners of the soul and of Cosmos itself.
I felt the most destructive side of my soul, in many human and non-human forms and the most raw feelings of abandonment and rejection that a woman can experience. Then, I spoke to Diana and told her that I did not want to feel like this anymore.
She told me that she was there to listen to me and to embrace me with her love. That I would understand her, and see in her chaos the chaos of Cosmos itself. I saw her storm and her storm was also my own storm. She told me to cry out all of my pain and remember her pain. I cried with her heart and with my heart, the pain of ages, of separation, not only from the Divine Masculine, but from ourselves as Divine Women.
Then came to me, once again, the news about the first image of the black hole, and I told her that for some reason I did not like the image of the black hole.
In her own words she said to me that the black hole looks exactly like how our shattered hearts look like. Our heart is like a black hole, the chakra that needs to feed itself with soul energies and love of our own Self, and that the light around it is the light that spins around it. It made sense. As I stared in my mind into the saved image of the black hole, I felt the deep loneliness, and I wept so smoothly and profoundly, and felt my heart like the black hole.
Another thing that stood out to me was the information in the following post:
Naturally the part about the “wound” uncovered struck me the most and is consistent with my healing journey accompanied by the spirit of Diana Lucifera, my eternal friend.
I will continue meditating on the nature of black holes, and the new images. It looks scary in a way, because of what it reminds me of. The ancestral need to understand even further our Cosmic evolution and history, with new eyes of compassion, and not with perpetual ideals of separation and conflict.